Changed..

Well..recently have had some weird kind of feeling occuring over and over again...
Im like becoming very easy get upset and mood swing..i duno how could tis happen to me as the previous me was not meant to behave in tis way ..my ques is .." did i changed ??" I feel like now even myself duno who i am.. im totally lost..
The only thing i noe is its out of my control when these feeling come ..could it be there's a major changed towards my character??... or sometimes i wonder its may because im too over stepping into someone who i could never let go ..i knew i was wrong .. but i jus couldnt do anything ..its like a drug ..and im deeply addicted..
Hereby i would like to apologise...im Sry to the one i had hurt when these feeling arrived..i knew sometimes became very emotional or even use some rude words and phrase .. i dun mean it SERIOUSLY.. IM SO SRY... i think thats not right for me to being interfering so much into somebody's life....i will try my best to improve myself.. to gain controversial towards various feelings.. and to pull myself out abit... i believe i can !

Confusion@.@

Certainly a weird feeling...AUSMAT is DONE!!!HOORAAAaaaayyyy..........=.=....>.<
So . Whats next? Degree....
Currently i'm having severe headache on deciding my path towards my future..
I really phobia of being having to choose wat i have to study... " What's are u going to study? Where ? When ?" ARGH!! this phrase haunted me since after SPM!! jus that i was thinking im finally free from it after i step my foot into AUSMAT and now AUSMAT is over and im back to tis irritating situation ....
Well..im trying to narrow my choice down .. 1stly, engineering ..which my subject in PRE-U is most directing to..which also massly included my most unfavourable subject of maths IS OUT!!!!
I really wouldnt want to involve myself in something that i may regret later on becoz i clearly noe that maths is not my bowl of rice ...by looking at my stupid results of my Pre-U can tell that..where both my calculus and applicable maths score lower than other subjects....
2ndly..i thought of taking law at the beginning as it somehow favour my character.. but jus in certain aspect i suppose..however public speaking and gonna write tons of contracts and the course duration really worry me up .. tat makes me wonder am i suitable for it a not
3rdly..accounting and finance..i duno him and he duno me ..i thought of doing as it sound much easier compare to other courses...but i dare not to take the risk towards it ...and i though of studying something professional to be able to give my family and future"WIFE" a better lifestyle.. furthermore, there are also many reasons and things that influence me towards this choice.i really miss my frens in Pre-U!!and i miss my college!!

BELOW ARE A STUPID POEM ...

WONDERS AND WONDERS AND WONDERS!!
SOMEONE GIMME IDEAS!!
WHY HEADACHE STAY HERE!!
I HATE TIS FOREVER!!
LIFE SO MUCH WONDERS!!!
OBLIGATE OR BE LOSER!!
VERY UNDERSTANDABLE!!
EVERYONE TELL ME FASTER!!
UNDERSTAND DEN GIMME IDEAS!!!

Happy or Sad?

Well it the very 1st day after the entire LAN subject.. so basically im free now! Yes very very free...
To say that LAN subject is a total rubbish..hmm..anyway for me i dun certainly think so. It may be quite boring and lifeless, but at the same time, it spare me many memories and "remembrance"
Back to the title! Happy or Sad..y did i set tis as my title? I wish i would noe too.
Eventually i'm currently in a state that even myself are also quite confusing that whether shud i be extremely happy or vice versa. I REALLY DUNNO!
What is that to make us happy? Is it that we are finally free from killer load of assignments and works together with numbers of headache exams?? Or its to say that we are finally graduated and grow a bit more mature? Is all that really makes people happy? I wonder
Sad and sorrow, what form a human being? character? emotion? feelings? care?sense?
Feelings can be quite simple.. but it can be at the same time the most difficult and hardest things to be understanded. Being having to leave all my frens especially those good one and BEST one of cz are something really hard to overcome. Sometimes those feeling just POP out of a sudden causing myself being EMO ..i wish i could have controlled but sadly its over my capability to handle.
As my mum always tell me..human meet each others becoz of faith! and when time come, no matter how hard those feeling may be, it is out for us to reach but to accept the truth that we have be seperated.Even though some may be together for very long time but at the end death will end all these too! So we should precious every moment wif our frens doesn't matter how close both might be. We could never estimate or forseen when one individual will be leaving without notice. Life is delicate and soft where the duration can never be estimated.
To all my dearest frens (All from BEST to someone that i might jus seen u be4) :
I wish i could have enlighten ur world and for any things that i did wrong and bothering u, i wish that I can be forgive.
Once fren we are always frens till the day i die.. if there is anything i can help u out about, feel no hesitate to ask me for help!
And last but not least, do not let small thing destroy frenship, and let the frenship last forever. Precious ur frens make every moment a smile on everyone's face..
Frenz FOREVER

P.S DO NOT FORGET ME PLS!!!

Neway! My Karaoke Virginity!

Under great suggestion from my beloved sis , we and our cousin including my mum who formally an anti-karaoke activist make up our mind to have our dinner at Neway enjoying the K-dinner package.

Well this is my very 1st time attending all this kind of stuff which certainly place a " not so good " image in my mind.But it was fun after experiencing what it actually is .. its not like something as "bad" and "dangerous" as what the rumors says.

Since i dun really like typing so much, so let picture speak the rest.