Changed..

Well..recently have had some weird kind of feeling occuring over and over again...
Im like becoming very easy get upset and mood swing..i duno how could tis happen to me as the previous me was not meant to behave in tis way ..my ques is .." did i changed ??" I feel like now even myself duno who i am.. im totally lost..
The only thing i noe is its out of my control when these feeling come ..could it be there's a major changed towards my character??... or sometimes i wonder its may because im too over stepping into someone who i could never let go ..i knew i was wrong .. but i jus couldnt do anything ..its like a drug ..and im deeply addicted..
Hereby i would like to apologise...im Sry to the one i had hurt when these feeling arrived..i knew sometimes became very emotional or even use some rude words and phrase .. i dun mean it SERIOUSLY.. IM SO SRY... i think thats not right for me to being interfering so much into somebody's life....i will try my best to improve myself.. to gain controversial towards various feelings.. and to pull myself out abit... i believe i can !

Confusion@.@

Certainly a weird feeling...AUSMAT is DONE!!!HOORAAAaaaayyyy..........=.=....>.<
So . Whats next? Degree....
Currently i'm having severe headache on deciding my path towards my future..
I really phobia of being having to choose wat i have to study... " What's are u going to study? Where ? When ?" ARGH!! this phrase haunted me since after SPM!! jus that i was thinking im finally free from it after i step my foot into AUSMAT and now AUSMAT is over and im back to tis irritating situation ....
Well..im trying to narrow my choice down .. 1stly, engineering ..which my subject in PRE-U is most directing to..which also massly included my most unfavourable subject of maths IS OUT!!!!
I really wouldnt want to involve myself in something that i may regret later on becoz i clearly noe that maths is not my bowl of rice ...by looking at my stupid results of my Pre-U can tell that..where both my calculus and applicable maths score lower than other subjects....
2ndly..i thought of taking law at the beginning as it somehow favour my character.. but jus in certain aspect i suppose..however public speaking and gonna write tons of contracts and the course duration really worry me up .. tat makes me wonder am i suitable for it a not
3rdly..accounting and finance..i duno him and he duno me ..i thought of doing as it sound much easier compare to other courses...but i dare not to take the risk towards it ...and i though of studying something professional to be able to give my family and future"WIFE" a better lifestyle.. furthermore, there are also many reasons and things that influence me towards this choice.i really miss my frens in Pre-U!!and i miss my college!!

BELOW ARE A STUPID POEM ...

WONDERS AND WONDERS AND WONDERS!!
SOMEONE GIMME IDEAS!!
WHY HEADACHE STAY HERE!!
I HATE TIS FOREVER!!
LIFE SO MUCH WONDERS!!!
OBLIGATE OR BE LOSER!!
VERY UNDERSTANDABLE!!
EVERYONE TELL ME FASTER!!
UNDERSTAND DEN GIMME IDEAS!!!